| imagine |
[Jan. 20th, 2010|11:49 pm] |
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you may say i'm a dreamer but i'm not the only one
i hope some day you'll join me
and the world will be as one
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| fatigue |
[Jan. 19th, 2010|11:51 pm] |
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i'm damn tired
i'm not suppose to be sleeping
what is this world coming to?
fuck this shit man.
I HATE PROJECTS.
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| maybe |
[Jan. 18th, 2010|12:03 am] |
Maybe is a word that is probably used at every start of what my mind is thinking now
maybe i should stop dancing
maybe i shouldn't
maybe i should give up now
maybe i should give a fight
maybe my leg would recover miraculously
maybe it'll just be a burdern
maybe you feel the same way i do
maybe you don't even notice me
maybe my projects will be good
maybe it would just suck shit as it is just a rush
maybe i'm just fooling myself and everyone around me, i'm uselss
maybe everyone is trying to kid me too, you know i'm useless but you just talk crap cause you're my friend
maybe tomorrow will be a better day.
i know it won't be a better day.
so many maybeS.
and partly some of them are true
i know the answers, maybe just makes you feel better
slow the process of coming to a decision.
what's the point
shouldn't it be just over and done with?
i guess i'm not strong enough to face the facts. |
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| it's a __ friday |
[Jan. 15th, 2010|11:14 am] |
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fill in the blanks yourself
how do ya describe fridays
can't go modern
just hope i can dance still
for me,
it's a screwed friday
so will my saturday.
i'll just leave it as that
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| again & again |
[Jan. 14th, 2010|04:13 pm] |
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when i thought going to dance,
i won't pull my hamstring again
but i was wrong.
pulled my hamstring for the third time.
maybe it just wasn't meant to be.
studying world issues is really opening up my eyes to the world
Extinction of animal especially
all the extinct animals that we all heard about
how we all wish we could see them.
but people always complain about things only when it's gone
i wish i could save all those animals being exploited
but i can't, i'm only me.
so beautiful they are, but yet all these evil people don't see it.
it's really a sad sad world.
no one takes time to appreciate things around them
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| holding on |
[Jan. 12th, 2010|02:13 am] |
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Why does things have to turn out this way?
Why is my life so Fucked Up right now
Why is this happening to Me?
I'm sorry if i let anyone down
i'm not superman.
i'm only human
and there's only so much i can do
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| appreciation |
[Jan. 10th, 2010|02:52 am] |
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take a look around you
observe
everything around is beautiful
when the light shines
everything just seem so right.
why doesn't anyone see the things right in front of you.
what a pity
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| It's getting close |
[Jan. 8th, 2010|12:04 pm] |
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Projects everyday
Haven't dance in two weeks
concert training starts next week
and i will officially have no life
it's like choosing between my GPA and dance right now
i would obviously choose my GPA
but totally giving up the choice to perform i think i would feel like crap
and i heard i can't ask for lesser items to perform
what am i gonna do now?
how am i to cope?
it's like praying for a miracle that i know will never happen
I NEED TIME
sigh
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| when i thought it was gonna be good |
[Jan. 6th, 2010|01:50 pm] |
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when i thought 2010 was a new beginning
2010 took me off guard and off my feet
it's the worse i can imagine.
it's probably gonna be the worst birthday of my life
and it is the few important one.
never felt like this before
and who hears me, no one
FML
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| 2010 |
[Jan. 3rd, 2010|03:28 pm] |
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it's a new year. but everything stays the same.
Project Season is still a Torture
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| hip hop with ah hua |
[Dec. 21st, 2009|11:30 pm] |
when to town around 4 plus
to find Divya's and Mei Xian's christmas present
didn't know what to get them
buying presents is the most nerve wrecking thing.
went to Ah Hua's hip hop II class
it's damn stressful and choreo was pretty tough.
i totally cui. this shows how much my hip hop deproved.
but i enjoyed the class definitely.
i don't know what i want seriously.
i don't feel like going modern,
but when i look at ryan i feel that i can learn a lot more from him.
FML.
LJ is playing a fool with me,
i'm using my blogger again for awhile.
the link is above.
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| Avatar |
[Dec. 19th, 2009|11:33 pm] |
hip hop training was cancelled cause Gin was down with a fever!
woke up late and didn't go popping.
met Chloe and watch Avatar!
it's an awesome movie. totally worth the money
and it's like a 2 hour 45 minutes movie.
=)
the DVD is a must get when it's out.
today is a pretty good day=)
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| sentosa |
[Dec. 18th, 2009|11:57 pm] |
met divya at Bishan in the morning for breakfast
had a great talk! thanks!=D
love ya girl!
went to Sentosa with TPDE
definitely fun!
saw some FB people too.
but damn shag.
tomorrow still got hip hop training
OMG GOTTA WAKE UP EARLY
did i mention, i saw Mr Paul Rainer today!
but he didn't recognise me=/
oh well it's good seeing him. |
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| first RP session |
[Dec. 17th, 2009|11:58 pm] |
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please watch this dope video if you haven't
<3 the poppers
and thanks Ben for the awesome video=D
woke up at 1PM fell back asleep soon after
and woke up at 4.30PM
OMG crazy. latest so far.
decided to go RP to session (cause Luqman asked)
even though i was kinda scared cause i don't really know much people
overall, RP is really a nice place to dance and chill
i think i learn some stuff today! and everyone was really nice!
thanks!
tomorrow TPDE outing at sentosa! |
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| in between |
[Dec. 16th, 2009|11:42 pm] |
had modern today,
couldn't go for An An's class because of this.
sigh
ryan's a great teacher of course.
he's awesome in fact.
but somehow i just don't have the feel for modern.
i like the song, but when i dance.
it's like i can't feel the love for it.
for modern
1. modern is good for me, i get to know my body better
2. people who want to get it, can't get in. it's a waste to quit
3. i get to learn more stuff, it's something new
4. it would help with with dance in general, might help my hip hop improve.
against modern
1. i look weird doing it
2. i have to work extra hard to be on par with others,
due to old injuries i sustain from track. modern used the parts that i injured
3. i don't have the feel and love for modern. it feels like i'm doing it for the sake of doing it.
4. it clashes with An an's hip hop class
see the dilemma?
i need a decision maker function
when i stop thinking about you
i feel like i know i'm gonna be happy soon |
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| just wanna believe it again |
[Dec. 16th, 2009|02:15 am] |
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i promise myself not to think about you
i think i did it
somehow i don't feel sad or jealous
but i feel kinda empty
i think the feeling is always in my heart
but i never took notice
i thought i was cured, but i know i'm not
the poppers just made it easier to deal with things
because they made me laugh and forget about stuff.
really gotta thank them for that
now that recital is over, the feeling is back.
i think i lose my confidence in a lot of areas. one includes relationships.
somehow i do hope to find that special someone,
yet i'm afraid of what might happen.
i just wanna be happy, how hard can it be?
i remember seeing this blind couple,
doing nothing but walking around or sitting at strabucks drinking coffee
the aura of happiness they gave out was one to envy.
they cannot see, but they are happy with what they have and where they are.
at that moment all i could think of was,
i'm a perfectly able person, shouldn't i be happier.
but i'm not.
i want things to change.
i know i need them to.
i just wish that the guy i met in my dreams was real and he exists
cause then it would be like a flashforward,
and i know what my future will be. |
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| Recital 2009 |
[Dec. 14th, 2009|11:49 pm] |
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late post for recital. cause i'm super tired.
Oschool Recital was DOPE of course!
1.Poppers+ Ben
Thanks to Ben for taking time to choreograph the item,
get our dope t-shirts printed,
uploading videos for us to see our progress,
tolerating our lateness or absence,
teaching us how to be retarded and other stuff!
really appreciate it!
and Poppers,
thanks for the crazy-fun-retarded recital trainings and everything!
is like i never fail to laugh in trainings or when i'm with all of you
most memorable memory i'll keep with me,
is KS leading the "warm-up" just before the performance
=D
post dinner and session yeah!=) 2.TPDE+Gina,Divya and Meixian
TPDE and Gina, thanks for coming down to support=D
i know you guys found the tickets kinda expensive!
Thanks Divya for lending me your DSLR to spam photos!
and Meixian for the good wishes through text messages,
plus keeping me company before my popping trainings=)
Congrats to KS and Melanie for the awards=)
Everything is on facebook!
Holidays has started, and i got to do projects already!
today is the last day i'll think of you,
it's a promise to myself.
i said if you're happy, i will be too
i know you are now.
so i'm gonna be happy and forget about you. |
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| new moon |
[Dec. 13th, 2009|12:53 am] |
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 Divya and I with Asafa Powell
Woke up at 1PM,
met Divya to borrow her DSLR cause my camera is crazy
the jamaicans were in town, so we went there to get their signature and photo.
awesome!
met Chloe after that, and watched New Moon!
wooohoo! surprisingly it was pretty good
definitely better than twilight, which you can hear crickets during the movie.
Taylor Lautner is hot. haha!
i like him better than Robert Pattinson.
sorry cullen fans!
tomorrow RECITAL!!!
time pass really fast!
JIAYOU TO LL RECITAL PEOPLE!
LET'S HAVE FUN!=D
POPPING YO~ |
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| last popping recital |
[Dec. 12th, 2009|01:57 am] |
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Tests are over!
F&B was like easy
but i think i screwed up, just hope i pass
i wrote rubbish for questions i forgot the answer.
bought my uniqlo sweat pants.finally
purple and blue
wanted the red.
might consider buying the next time i drop by.
i have yet to buy my jeans.
i probably gonna go through some fashion change within this two weeks
so people don't be shock. i hope i'm not too lazy
today was the last popping recital training!
it was also the training we had the most fun and laughter!
really gonna miss it!
All the way for Sunday!
We can do it!=D
Let's go out there and have fun! woohoo!
♥
i'm the only person at home! |
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| information overload |
[Dec. 10th, 2009|09:03 pm] |
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Fundamental of F&B is Retarded!
dislike it, strongly (refuse to use hate, cause hate is a strong word.LOL)
it's like so much information, and EVERYTHING is important?
how to remember so many things.
if anyone can memorise the damn thing, you got super brains
i straight away dope you.
i never tried to load my brain by memorising until today
it doesn't work, i tried.
my brain is like gonna blow even though there's nothing in it
just that i read too much.
imagine reading a 15 page lecture notes with 6 slides on each page,
ALL ABOUT FISH, FRUITS and all kinds of stuff!
Each topic exceeds 10 pages
I'M SO DEAD.
my last paper and it have to be like that.
hope i survive tomorrow
am i falling in, when i'm not suppose to? |
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